Office by Alex Penny
i'm julianna. i'm 18 years old and a freshman in college. i love to express myself through writing and i hope one day others can enjoy my writing as much as i do :)
You know, I have to wonder sometimes how your best friends suddenly become your worst enemies. I’m sure there are reasons; people change, certain events, etc, etc. But I don’t know…I just was always under the firm belief one should not be judged based on one thing in there past. Even murderers.
I’ve just been thinking a lot about an encounter I had about a month ago. One of my best, best friends in ninth grade was a girl in the grade above (as so many of my friends are). We just really clicked. Sometimes I could get irritated with her but she was still my friend. Slowly though, she began to distance herself. I didn’t really understand why, I can kind of see how I’ve changed now but it still hurts thinking about it. I mean, I still like her as a person and feel awful that I made her feel badly in her life. For me personally, I need someone to give me a slap on the wrist so I know when I’m doing something wrong. I don’t get offended; I take it as constructive criticism (or rather, I try to). I guess it just bothers me since I still like her and regret all those times I unintentionally made her feel that way and wished she could have just come and talked to me. Spoke up for God’s sake. Now she’s gone on believing she just hates my personality and I should just go on and deal with it. Nice parting thought eh?
(Source: empowerwithinstrength)
i REFUSE to let you get to me. to break me down. because thats all you ever did our entire friendship. im sick of always being at the bottom. now that you will no longer be apart of my life, i will no longer let you break me down. i will only let you bring me up, knowing that i dont have to deal with the bull shit anymore, thanks.
(Source: justsixteenyears)
(via as-told-by-dee)
i cant do it anymore, i just cant.
i cant stand being lied to day after day, being used constantly, having you talk behind my back like im this horrible piece of shit. im done.
im so sick of you thinking you are fucking god. because honey, you are far from it. stop saying you are the farthest from fake because GUESS WHAT, you are the D.E.F.I.N.I.T.I.O.N. of the word!
you honestly disgust me. they werent the only reason why i left. you were a good 40% of it as well. after 3 years of dealing with your bull shit, i left as soon as i could. im still only around to get through the rest of this fucking senior year, but after that, oh god believe me times a million, please get the fuck out of my life and never come back.
i CANNOT believe that i EVER considered you one of my best friends, ever. you are the shadiest and meanest girl that i ever met. you think you are on top of the world and everyone adores you and every guy from la la world wants to be with you. NEWSFLASH you have BOOBS, and SECOND NEWSFLASH, they dont want to be with you, they want to GET WITH YOU. obviously.
you say that you never talk shit about people behind their backs, when you will go from hanging out with your “omg youre like my bff4l and sister i luhhh yew so much omg seriously youre so pretty lets go apartment shopping togetha forevaaaa!” to calling me because she has to go into work and shit talking her for a good 2 hours about all the things you despise about her. WHAT KIND OF FRIEND IS THAT?!
i just cannot do this anymore. ive realized things i should have realized a long time ago. when you asked me if i was okay today because i wasnt acting like myself, bitch i wanted to fucking grab your neck through that phone and shake you because you should fucking know that i know every single damn thing you say about me!
im not “cute”? FUCKING LOOK IN THE MIRROR AND CALL YOUR CLOWN FRIEND AND TELL HIM HES FIRED BECAUSE YOUR MAKEUP LOOKS LIKE SHIT. every fucking 12th picture you post, daily, of yourself, on facebook, looks the exact same as it did yesterday, ugly, with that stupid constipated fucking smile you do. FUCKING STOP. and i swear to god if you post another 12 statuses in one day….holy hell.
omg i need to stop. i know this just made me look like a terrible person but i couldnt hold it in any longer.
(Source: dumbledorathexplora)
(Source: detrimental-attraction)
But I don’t want to !
