September132012

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September92012

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September32012
i would have never thought, 7 months ago, that i would be typing a blog about you….better yet, how much i missed you. we both were unfaithful in our relationship, me physically and you mentally. as much as you probably will deny it, i know it still happened. but i was in the wrong too. i just cant believe were talking….talking again.at first, i wasnt really sure if i really wanted to take that next step with you, because i was afraid to get hurt again, to have those trust issues with you day in and day out…always worrying about you telling other girls that you had feelings for them, and that you were just using me. but now, i want nothing more then to just be with you. i was hoping you were going to come over today with a big bouqet of flowers and you were going to hug me and tell me you wanted to be with me…but we can all dream, right? instead, we both revisited the memories we had together, which brought back all those loving feelings that i had for you….seeing you was hard enough as it was. i was hoping when i said bye to you that i would look up and we would kiss like everything would be okay and that you would ask me to be with you again, but again, we can all dream right? instead, i hugged you and that was it…i even had to text you first and you told me you didnt know where you wanted to go from here…I WANT TO BE WITH YOU. THATS ALL I WANT. but instead, im just going to sit here, and quietly fall in love with you again while you enjoy your single life. and once you decide to finally tell me that you dont want to be with me, ill be far enough in where im completely heartbroken, again. love sucks.

i would have never thought, 7 months ago, that i would be typing a blog about you….better yet, how much i missed you.

we both were unfaithful in our relationship, me physically and you mentally. as much as you probably will deny it, i know it still happened. but i was in the wrong too.

i just cant believe were talking….talking again.at first, i wasnt really sure if i really wanted to take that next step with you, because i was afraid to get hurt again, to have those trust issues with you day in and day out…always worrying about you telling other girls that you had feelings for them, and that you were just using me.

but now, i want nothing more then to just be with you. i was hoping you were going to come over today with a big bouqet of flowers and you were going to hug me and tell me you wanted to be with me…but we can all dream, right?

instead, we both revisited the memories we had together, which brought back all those loving feelings that i had for you….seeing you was hard enough as it was.

i was hoping when i said bye to you that i would look up and we would kiss like everything would be okay and that you would ask me to be with you again, but again, we can all dream right?

instead, i hugged you and that was it…i even had to text you first and you told me you didnt know where you wanted to go from here…I WANT TO BE WITH YOU. THATS ALL I WANT.

but instead, im just going to sit here, and quietly fall in love with you again while you enjoy your single life. and once you decide to finally tell me that you dont want to be with me, ill be far enough in where im completely heartbroken, again.

love sucks.
August262012

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August202012

my roommate just walked in on me taking pictures of myself…haha what the fuck

August152012

this whole college thing…

is really starting to completely overwhelm me. it didnt start to hit me until i began hanging out with some of my friends that were going to colleges many hours away. it hit me like….this is it. im not going to be seeing them in the hallways everyday like i was so used to for four years. just like graduating from all saints, we’re all going our seperate ways again. goodbyes suck, and theyre always hard.

i know that i dont have much to cry or be worried about considering im only going to a college that is 25 minutes away, but that doesnt even matter…im still going to be on my own and have so much expected out of me. actually seeing all these boxes start piling up in my room, and my room becoming more and more bare…its becoming so real and unimaginable. as much as i am excited to leave and begin my life…im deathly scared of whats to come of me. like am i going to succeed? will i finally be happy, for once in my life?

on a side note, im going to bawl my eyes out when i have to say goodbye to my dog. that dog has been with me since i moved out here to monclova; he has been my rock and has been there for me when noone else was. he may be the ugliest thing ever, but thats what makes him the cutest damn thing.

i just dont know if im ready to really say goodbye.

August112012

(Source: danniellllyy)
12AM

i HAVE to lose weight

or i will never be good enough…or happy.

August82012

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August12012

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